I can't go with the flow anymore. Being on other people's time, not speaking my mind, playing it safe, doing the "right" thing has left me unfulfilled,broke, with a weakened Will and most of all mentally frustrated with myself. I'm  an Alchemist for fucks sake. I'm not might to be fearful, complacent and angry with myself. 

My Nature is to be in charge, in or taking control of a situation, directing my energy, making quick decisions and creating my desires. Now, I know this because Ive been this before and the most destructive act i did was letting myself believe that someone else knew what was best for me and I should listen. Simply put I stopped being aggressive. 

 I wake at times just like now and have this fire in my stomach, my mind focused, and my will completely in control with my full spirit holding the wheel. And knowing I've programmed my mind along with the help of our society to try and surpass the energy….. i re-fucking-fuse to allow myself to get stagnant again! Its a dark place.

I'm a 27 year old, Black Man that is literally Great at EVERYTHING  I choose to do and will no long let any of my fears and ego based doubts hold me down. Just like when I'm on my bike throwing myself in a new for the first time. I remove all fear and worry from my being and get tunnel vision. Completely focused on my objective. And in this life my objective, is to reconnecting as many souls to this Earth as possible though whatever means necessary.

Time is an illusion, may you take control and grow alongside me.